It's ok and it's not easy. I was one who over analyzed everything all the time. But you are wasting energy analyzing why he does certain actions that certainly don't involve you or your R at all...
M39 W41 Two children WAW bomb dropped 11/7/09 Piecing Aug 10 - Nov 10 No longer piecing...Nov 10 Separation Jan 11 EA ends again Feb 11 Piecing attempt #2, Mar 11