I am annoyed today. I am tired of waking up most days w/ a damn migraine and thinking about how he doesn't want this M. F that! I am tired of caring about a man who obviously doesn't give a damn about me! I am so tired of feeling this awful feeling and longing for someone who can so easily walk away from me and then act like it's cool to be seeing eachother after we D with and having tons of naked looking girls on his online profiles, that his own family sees -- Did I never mean anything to this fool???? Looking back I see this is what he wanted the entire time. It's not good to mindread but my bet is this f-cker has had someone on the side for a long time now. Maybe his new piece will give him herpes! He wouldn't even get tested after he told me he f-cked that girl! I hate that he makes me feel old, like I lost the best years of my life with him, all my damn 20s, on someone who could so easily walk away and bang a 23 year old! I guess I got too old for him!
I AM TIRED OF CARING ABOUT SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT CARE ABOUT ME!!!
I pray each day for the Lord to take away this awful feeling I have, for the day I won't remember his stupid ass, for the day I won't think of his face/name/any memory of him. I dont want to think about HIM and yet this post is about all him. LOL.
I wish so bad this D could be declared OVER. I want out. I want nothing to do with him anymore. It's like a black damn cloud hanging over my head. Screw him!
It turns my stomach how calculated he was--at first saying we could talk about where our R was going only AFTER I signed the house to him an the legal sep. documents then how in one week, he told me if I didn't sign his damn greencard he'd file for divorce (which I signed for him and he filed anyway) AND we scheduled marriage counselling in the same week. That is SO seriously f*cked up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate this man, who he is now, and
I AM SICK oF THIS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He lied about loving me and making a life with me and how badly he wanted to get married, always wanted to get married, from the beginning when I was thinking, WTH? Wow. He is serious! He would always say "Sol, I hope you are taking our R very seriously...cause I am... I want a life with you." F-CKING LIAR!!!!!!!!
I will never trust anyone again like that. Never.
Sorry but I really needed to vent.
::Fixing my hair after screaming rant on DB and straightening out my skirt::
I will come back and respond to you all in a bit before I throw this keyboard out the damn window.
Well on the brightside, it appears I am hitting the anger stage
