I've only just begun!

[soleil]

Sorry to hear about that, Sandy. It will be for the best though.

I totally agree with you, if he feels he should stop seeing you for whatever reasons, then no point arguing his feelings.

From the book of DB 101

[sandycay]

Well had a good weekend. Went out with girlfriend on Friday night. Gosh the younger men are silly. The 30 something crowd likes older woman. Then they try to BS you saying "I think your in your mid thirties".... hahaha....

Do they think I fell off the turnip truck? Some of them are interesting... I got into a convo with a young man 28 who had just come back from Iraq 3 weeks ago and didn't know anyone has he had just moved here about a month before he deployed. We talked for a while interesting kid. He tried to buy me a shot of tequila at the end of the conversation.... we were talking pretty frankly about things considering where he has been. He said as I was leaving "I wish girls my age were more like you... capable of communicating, interesting conversation." I took that as the biggest compliment of the night... other than showing the bouncer my id to get in..... I said "serioulsy"

He said "yup"

On Sat. I met up with a fellow that we are friends of mutual friends on FB.... he's a runner too so we have talked over the past year about running stuff via FB.... well the kids where out of town this weekend so he ask if I wanted to meet for coffee Saturday afternoon ( he knew I was studying alot this weekend) for a break.... I thought about it... and thought why not... it's just coffee...

We ended up going to the glass musuem, watched them blow glass, and walked thru the exhibit and then went for coffee. It was a nice non-date.


However, he is an attorney. ;-)

[BobbiJo]

So glad you had a nice weekend! And a compliment for being yourself, a good conversationalist? Excellent!

[sandycay]

Yes, I give good conversation! LOL

So~ AG (attorney guy) has sent me a few text today.

FFG is coming over tomorrow so we can do the big exchange of stuff. I haven't seen him in over two weeks....weird!

I did defriend him on FB. It's for the best for right now. I wish him the best and everything but I'm not quite ready to watch it happen under my nose... plus it keeps popping up pictures on the side and they always seem to be of him. Plus, since we broke up, he has beeen using FB quite a bit where he never did before. So, I had to go FB dark... LOL

DB taught me some valuable lessons...

[kat727]

See when one door closes another one opens, you just have to be looking! lol Good to see you brushing yourself off and still moving right along.

kat

[soleil]

That glass museum seems very cool, Sandy I'm intrigued!

[sandycay]

Well, FFG and I did the big exchange.... first time we have seen each other in two weeks.

It was awkward at first, but we loaded and unloaded... It was weird because he walked in with a gash on his band and I had a band aid in my hand. I had just cut my finger.


So at the end, he hugs me really long ( he hs the most wonderful hugs) and gets choked up and says "I'm sorry". Looks at me really long, kisses me on the cheek and has tears in his eyes. He asked me how school was going & I couldnt' even speak after seeing him..... Just tears sprung to my eyes and I choked out "hard". I had to turn around and walk away.


He sent me a text a few minutes later. Said "That was hard seeing you and keeping my emotions under control."

Why does he need to tell me this?

[sandycay]

See when one door closes another one opens, you just have to be looking! lol Good to see you brushing yourself off and still moving right along.

kat

I'm not looking.... not even remotely .... I can't handle another goodbye like this one qutie yet.

But GAL is meeting new people and it was an opportunity for me to step out there.

[sandycay]

That glass museum seems very cool, Sandy I'm intrigued!

It is really neat.... the building is really cool on the outside. They have a museum and a hot shop... where visiting artist do the work. It's really neat when the are doing big pieces... This week it was birds... so artistically pleasing.... but I like the bigger pieces.

[sandycay]

AG called last night after a few text exchange. He asked my permission to call. It was very thoughtful because of the kids.


We talked for about an hour. It was pleasant.

I am being mindful of what a friend shared with me of something that she saw in me back in August. She told me she thought I was co-dependant. I've been researching that and going back over the relationships of past and since August and she is right.

I am working on that, so normal tendancy would be to jump on the AG relationship potential... because it is probably there.

But I am not going to do that this time. I want to take a "Kerry" approach and a) concentrate on my kids b) concentrate on myself & school & continue to GAL of things I want.

So, I will keep AG in a friend category... for coffee, hiking, and maybe occasional dinner. Until I feel ready to take on something instead of something taking on me. I think I do that because I fear I will "miss" out on 'the one".

Just a personal goal until I see those codependant thoughts and actions disappear.