as opposed to how great i feel now? i'm at a point where i don't care to help anybody anymore. being a good person doesn't mean very much. i'm just tired of helping and having people take advantage of that help.
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I suspect you may be waiting on that Bentley to make you feel better.
no, mine will be an aston martin. he can have his bentley.
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There is a reason you are acting stupid. It is the exact same reason you acted stupid within the confines of you marriage.
the strange thing is, i know i'm acting stupid. but i'm rebelling and acting out. it makes me feel better .. like i'm transferring my anger and hurt on to others.
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They are to encourage you to understand what I am saying.
your choice of words don't bother me. i'm pretty numb at this point.
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1. lacking ordinary quickness and keenness of mind; dull. 2. characterized by or proceeding from mental dullness; foolish; senseless: a stupid question. 3. tediously dull, esp. due to lack of meaning or sense; inane; pointless: a stupid party. 4. annoying or irritating; troublesome: Turn off that stupid radio. 5. in a state of stupor; stupefied: stupid from fatigue. 6. Slang . excellent; terrific.
Which definition best fits you?
all but #6. #6 is not me. my self-esteem is in the toilet. my daily blabbing is about what? how good i look when i'm skin and bones. how much attention i get when someone looks at me?
i have no self-esteem. i'm buying things to fill the void. i want to run away. i want to drop everything and run away .. i don't know where and i don't care. as long as it's not here and not where i know anybody.
i can't remember the last time i felt good about myself.
