Yesterday WAW stopped by my work to tell me the results of her most recent medical tests. The doctor's office is just a few blocks away. She has lupus and it is quite advanced. It is now at the point of attacking her liver, kidneys, pancreas. This is just the latest in an ongoing list of medical problems.
I of course, feel sorry for her, but at the same time feel something I don't know I can admit anywhere other than here or to my counselor. Why do I want to spend my life with someone who is always ill and walked out on me and our kids, when my most recent experiences have shown me that there are plenty of attractive, healthy, vibrant women who would be interested in me?
