I spoke to my wife this morning about access to the kids and money etc, it went really well.
I asked her for 3 nights a week with them, she said fine, but can we just start with 2 for a few weeks until the kids are settled, I agreed, fairly happy with that.
Then we discussed bills, etc, she pays the general bills and pay the mortgage, she said that she couldn't afford to pay them now, fair enough she doesn't live there, but she had been in touch with our mortgage company and they have confirmed that I can go on interest free payments for 12 months, which with the saving it will cover the monthly bills.
So financially I'm no worse off in the short term, I have plenty of time to address the mortgage in the future!!
She asked me if I was going to sell the house, I said not at the moment as I need to sort myself out and didn't want to rush into anything, she understood, but said that if I want to sell it any proceeds we can either split 50/50 or put in a trust fund for the kids future, I just agreed and said lets wait and see.
I never discussed us and thanked her for sorting the mortgage out, she asked if I was being sarcastic, I usually am!!, I said no I really appreciate your thinking about me, she said that she didn't just want to drop me in it with money.
Anyway I'm fairly upbeat now, I know when I'm seeing my kids, my finances seem sorted and I can look forward to the future.
I am thinking about re-decorating the house, room by room, and moving forward.
I miss her and want her, but, I don't need her.
What happens in the future happens, but as long as I see my kids and they are happy, I am happy.
