"She does respect me intellectually at least. But she HATES when I show weakness."
Even with your example...
"I’ve been lazy over the last two years."
You still understand that she has not been showing you the "Respect" you deserve.
Why does she still respect you intellectually?
How can you earn the respect you deserve?
"When we did talk about it, it would start a fight and she’d basically tell me “that is not good enough”."
So.. she expected more? From you? (PX-90)
"“Myself” is harder to define. But I know I was happier a few years ago, and I liked myself and felt I was being truer to who I was."
If YOU can't define yourself.. how can anyone else? It is hard to understand someone.. when they don't know who they are.
"No. I don’t. Understand that it is just a part or my life and I know that it is not everything. This will take work, but honestly it’s like number 9 or 10 on my list right now and I can’t disambiguate it from what W wants."
So.. we will come back to this?
In 24-22 days whatever it is now.
Be careful with making plans on someone's thought. (DANGER)
"I can’t get that here."
You has Internetz.. You just don't know how. 90% of the battle was won.. with just having the Web at your disposal.
I understand if you don't get it.
"The whole situation is forcing me to reach out to people that I basically cut out of my life a few years ago. I am incredibly thankful the.; my sister in particular. She is a new mother but is finding the time for me every day. It is bringing us closer than we’ve ever been."
This happened for a reason. I will leave it at that. Be careful with whom you reach out to. That is all I will say.
Off we go....
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
