No worries about the hijack - I could use the distraction:)
Another long day at work - but no tears. Met with IC today and we talked about my continual internalization of blame. The bottom-line, is that I have always felt H saved me from a life of addiction and co-dependency. Of irresponsibility and poverty. I have never given myself credit that I might have succeeded on my own. Maybe he had a hard time being up on that pedestal. So he jumped off with both feet! He is reaching out to our S - wanting him to come and stay at the hotel overnight. S told him ok, but he isn't thrilled about going. I have encouraged S to follow his heart.
At 47 I am having a lot of anxiety of wasting time. I know the 2x4s will be coming out - only I can make the changes - only I can make things better for myself - but I am struggling with feelings of hopelessness and exhaustion. I listened to Joel Osteen last night and he talked about where you find your value. That you shouldn't find it in other people, or work, etc. - your value should come from God. I want to get to this place.
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
