Half Baked Spring Chicken

[punkin]

Thank you Cat04 and everyone that has been following my thread. I reply to many threads, but I actually read many more than I reply to. I accept that the marriage that I had is dead. There is no going back. I accept that the man I loved for so many years is MIA, and may never return. I may have anger bubbling just underneath the surface, but I feel much more sorrow than any other emotion.

I can not, and will not, accept waiting complacently while he 'lives his life' that appears to make him happy, despite the sighting of hurt and pain I occasionally see. He chose this path to follow. I have to choose mine.

If I called him on the phone right now and said "Honey, I love you, come home." What would he say? It's not a question that matters to me anymore. I have to move on. Perhaps our lives will cross again, but unless he has sought help for his problems, there would be no point other than to say hello to an old friend.

I respect and admire all of my friends here on the Board. I'm not leaving. I'm just taking a step away from my sitch. A necessary one for my peace of mind.