My wife has been gone for a year. I want her back every day, but only recently, I began feeling a pain similar to when she first left. Maybe it is because I have begun talking to other women and I sense the finality of the situation. I even had a dream in which she wanted to come back, but I didn't let her because of her motives (in the dream).
Sunday night, my daughter was admitted to the hospital for an allergic reaction (she's fine). So, I spent the night in the same room with my wife and daughter. My wife and I get along just fine. We talked and joked. It all felt right. When we left the hospital, it felt like I lost her all over again.
I don't know why I'm sharing this. I am usually composed. I didn't ask for her back, but I implied it several times. I did say that I love her. This happens every few months. I leave her alone for months. We spend some time together. She SEEMS to put out signas and signals that she is interested in me (i.e. telling me she isn't/hasn't been with other men, constantly primping, etc). So, I make a move and she rebukes me.
I didn't turn it to a serious conversation this time. I believe I'll just let it go and not contact her. The temptation is there to get a hold of her and ask if she feels we made a connection again, if she feels right when the family is together.
