Your struggling because IMO...you are starting to "see"..
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I'm trying to do the right thing and I'm trying to change the old behavior in myself, but my old behavior matches the detachment process.
Dude I was the same WAY....same fu*king way man. I checked out emotionally in my M waaayyyyy before the bomb dropped.
So I thought that one of my 180's would be to contact her show her love. I can tell you that it will not work.
Do you know what you are trying to do?
Fix HER
You can't
Accepting that is the hardest thing that you will need to face (okay maybe not the hardest BUT hard)..
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I'm reaping what I sowed
Are you? OR are you realizing where you failed in the M.
Did you cause your W's crisis?
Guilt my friend is a useless emotion!
Man the f*ck up!
You can do this chit - dude.
And don't tell me you can't.
What are you a puss?
Feel this chit, then let it go. You just started this process dude so repeat after me....
F it...raise your right hand place the other on a bible and repeat...
I can CHOOSE to quit....
Just NOT today!
Tomorrow my friend is another day..
I'm standing with ya...
Your not alone...
Now, do me a favor...go for a run, (or my fav) rub one out, do something dude to keep your mind occupied.
I know it's hard dude...I know...
Once again....man the fuc* up!
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
