You guys crack me up! A blow up doll? I think that would be hiliarious for him to come home too, just waiting in bed for him the next friday night he goes out and stays till 3 am!

You know, I have made changes for me over the last 4 years, well, they were for him too. I have always worn make up, and fixed my hair nice. I have lost 70 pounds and feel great about myself!! He has not always been this way. It was only when he left 4 years ago that I heard all of this. ALot more of it have I heard over the last 2 months. I dont think anything would make him happy at this point. I really dont believe it has to do with me at all. He wouldnt be happy without me either...been there, done that. He needs to do alot of soul searching and work on himself BIG TIME!! I try to ignore the negative comments, but sometimes its hard to ignore.

And yes, I would like to make more money. Currently I am looking for ways to do that. I do run a business full time and work part time with my H...that leaves only the time I have with my kids for me to work. Trying to figure out what to do. Honestly, Im thinking of how to take care of myself and the kids, because if his attitude doesnt change, I will give him a choice, change it or leave. I will not live like this anymore.

Kissak

"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3
M-37 H-37
S-10, D-15
M- 1993
First bomb- 12/23/06
Came and went too MANY times!
Gone again 10-25-10