I am doing ok at the moment. W is going to move out Nov 1. she says.
She already said she was going to move out two weeks ago, but somebody beat her to the house she had set up to rent and eventually maybe buy.
I believe in all of her confusion, she slacked off on that deal and somebody snagged it first.
She still lives in another room in the lower level and we still are cordial.
Our next court date is in the beginning of Dec. now. That will be to finalize the child custody which will be 50/50.
I keep reading daily. We both see the IC every week. IC knows I know it is MLC and says she will come out of it when she is ready and only God knows when that is.
He keeps telling me to continue as I am but try to keep inviting her back into my life by saying things such as "I prefer you stay but if you decide to go I will miss you".
He asked me if I was taking her projection blaming personally?
He said that in a tone like, "I hope you are not taking the blaming personally."
He then says, like he has said in a past session, "Warrior, have FUN with this!"
I get a little rattled when he says stuff like this.
He says, "I know the deck seems a little stacked against you on this, but really Warrior, have FUN with this and try not to be in places that she does not want you to be in".
Translation: Don't do things that remind her of her relationship with her dad. IE. Pressure, threats etc.
I can't recall ever doing that but these days, anytime I disagree or get blamed for todays misshaps, it is viewed as pressure.
Light bulb was burned out in the light. It was immediately my fault because I probably was doing something to the light switches again.
Got to stop playing with the light switches I guess.
MLC=confusion=paranoia=conspiracy=everyone is against me etc.
Not sure if OM is still in the picture. I have not been snooping to find out.
I have now heard of two attempted suicide storys of people who have gone through this in my circle of people. Both women. One was successful and is no longer with us. (Overdose)
The other woman was unsuccessful both attempts in the last six months. The last time was this August and they had to do some kind of charcoal detox thing to her stomach to counter the overdose.
The pain they go through must be incredible to consider that as an option.
In the past, I would have totally doubted that as being an option to my wife if she was considering that. I am not quite as sure of that anymore.
After seeing this journey go so strangely, I don't know how to predict anything anymore.
