Pun...wanna see some really anger...go check out some of my old posts.
I agree with Cat - your really still angry.
And hey, it's okay to be angry Punkin. Really it is. Don't take the "your angry" comments the wrong way.
I hid my anger for a long time. Chit I even hid it from myself. I lied to myself many times, I lied to everyone else many times. My standard response was "i'm fine - I'm not angry"..."i'm standing".
It was bullchit. I was pissed the fu*k off and ya know what I had every fuc*ing right to be angry.
I was soooo angry at her.
Then I realized just how angry I was in general. When I began to see it, when I began to dig....I realized just how angry I was.
That anger was directed at my W for a long time. It was passive aggressive, it was disrespectful, it was many things...what it was not was...
Love.
It was not.
Compassion
It was Anger
It was PRIDE
It was Pain.
Punkin, at some point you will need to deal with this anger or you will bring this forward in your next R - be that with your H or with someone else.
Oh, btw, that anger will make YOU do things that you will regret later. Will make you do things that will Hurt you - yeah they may not hurt now but they will hurt later.
Your a spunky, strong woman Punkin - don't mask the anger and pain with this strength. True strength comes from being able to admit it. True strength comes from being able to break down, cry, scream, and release the anger...so that....
YOU can heal.
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
