I know all of you have been here. Yes it's tough, as you all know. I've been trying to clean out rooms and rearrange things to help offset the darker moments when the house is empty... It has helped a bit. I have been trying to GAL, VERY difficult to find time, my W has tons of that. I have gone out fir drinks here and there, try not to do that as much. I'm a not stuck on my off days (1-2 days without kids per week) doing errands or other work around the house that I just can't do with my 4 lil ones around. I think after she moves out, things will be easier for me to get a better system going. Extremely difficult days with 4 kid alone, but I do enjoy them. I do realize I spend WAY too much time focusing on my W / the divorce... Trying not to... I've been just ignoring her or the issues really to stay calm. Obviously I'm lonely as hell, but do talk to friends regularly. Not sure what the heck to do with myself half the time to be honest. I'm sad to say, I'm worried alot about how finances will be affected after the D is final. I have mentioned to the guys, I'd like to get a poker game going, but need her out first. Plan to get a BBQ going in the near future... wink I'm not too creative hey? Baby Steps. What the heck should I be doing?


Me:39 W:31 M:8
D6,3,19mo S5
I filed D 07-2010