A new beginning to an end

[ClingingToHope]

It's all a part of the process. I am looking forward to going out to dinner again, and movies, and all of it because STBXW hadn't had that kind of relationship for the three years prior to the separation.

Really, our 10th anniversary trip to Las Vegas was the end of that. We were there four nights and she spent the first three at the end smoking a cigarette (she'd started up again) and staring out the window at the Bellagio (I went all out) water display.

And I laid in bed wondering what she was thinking about. She was a million miles away during that trip.

Two weeks ago, I had the strange feeling like I was in high school again when I asked two women out for a big event. It hurt when neither could go. But it was a little exciting to just ponder the possibilities.