Alright you need to get yourself together. I know it's hard, but you've got to stop letting your W drive the train. Have you seen a C for your own issues? You need a good support system to help you through this.
We've all been through this, so I know how tough it is. What have you done for yourself?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.