Looking for help with WAW - 2

[mza8]

Thanks man. I'm just so tired of being miserable. I'm so tired of describing myself and my life with words like miserable, depressed, etc. I want to replace those words with happy, laughter, joy, etc. I'm sure this is how my W must feel too.

I'm not sure if I feel a lack of pressure or not. I'm just trying to catch my breath right now and figure out what I want. Some days I'm not even sure I want to keep the door open for my W...at least not who she is now. Honestly I do not find the person she is now attractive at all.

I don't think my W will ever come back. I still believe our issues are not insurmountable but I can't control her and I'm not trying to.