Letting go is hard, but I've not contacted him in any way since I last spoke to him on September 26th. I've made arrangements to live with a friend. I'll be sleeping there starting midweek. I will move the rest of my stuff out of the house a little at a time. I haven't started packing yet. I'm completely overwhelmed by what lies ahead. My emotions are keeping me from making much progress at all. I haven't even finished the paperwork my attorney needs. Need to finish that today. I think I will start keeping a mood journal.
He will be angry that I'm not leaving town. He said his generous offer in the settlement only stands if I move away. I guess we will see what happens. I'm not trying to make him angrier. But I'm also not ready to move 1500 miles away because he's angry. I have friends here, a job, and a place to live that I can afford. I feel as though he is trying to punish me. That's fine, I deserve to be punished. I will take my medicine, get out of his life, etc., but I don't have to like it, do I?
