The difference 3 months has made in my life

[TAMF]

This morning H showed up at 6:30am to surprise the girls and take them to school (they usually ride the bus). He brought them muffins and he brought me coffee. That was nice.

I got ready for work and when I walked out into the kitchen he stopped and his mouth dropped and he said,"wow, you look amazing" I smiled and said thanks.

His laptop had broke - totally broke/crashed/monitor flaked out. and he has to have a computer for his work. Yesterday when the girls and I were at Sam's Club - they asked if they could get Dad a new laptop for Christmas from them and give it to him now since he needs it so badly. I said okay and they picked it out. (he is completely computer stupid and would never know what to get) anyway, I need him to function well at work cause our finances are still together - so I want to make sure he has the tools to keep the money flowing into our account! but I won't deny that this is me "taking care of him" and wasn't the best idea for detachment purposes.

Anyway, the girls gave him the computer this morning and he was really shocked. smiling from ear to ear. gave both girls a great big hug and then came around to me and gave me a big hug too - as he gave me the hug, I whispered in his ear with a big smile "don't get your hopes up, I didn't do this to get you back"

He burst out laughing. I said that I had to go - as I was walking down the stairs he said, "it was good to see you this morning" I called back "you too" and he said "are you sure?" I walked back up the stairs and gave him a look...he puts up his hands and says "just kidding! have a good day"

Then I get to work, and a co-worker said that when she was on vacation last week, she was getting her hair done. (we share the same stylist who happens to know my husband too)and our stylist told co-worker that she had seen my H at the Oktoberfest Parade with his girlfriend while I was in vegas (Sept.25th). He had told me prior to my leaving for vegas that he wasn't going to Oktoberfest while he was watching the girls. but my Mom had asked him if she could take them to the parade. so he had open time...

I already figured he had gone because D12 had called me in Vegas and said he was gone until 7pm that night. When she asked him were he had been, he told her that it wasn't her concern. So she and I both knew he had been there with her. I just didn't know for sure.

Good Lord I hate to hear that people are talking about our situation. I hate gossip.

None of this is a surprise at all. I know he is with her.

Question is...does she know about me?

He is caught in a web of lies and secrets and confusion and pain and anger. The big spider that is life is going to come eat him soon.