I don't WANT a D, but don't realistically see the M being repaired. Especially when he hasn't addressed ANYTHING, either way, in 8 months.

The NC is truly a boundary for me. I've been so much more at peace when not dealing with him. It seems like it's true that I'm using peaceful time to just "be" but am not spending a lot of time deciding anything, making move toward D.

I'm not willing to talk to him (in person) about D or ownership of items. We can D w/o seeing each other. I guess I'm not really willing to talk to him about anything unless/until he mans up and says SOMETHING, ANYTHING about D, M, A...anything. What drives me most crazy is when I texted him about house ownership he said wasn't going to D by text and that he knew he hadn't "stepped up" to talk. That was 2 weeks ago and he still hasn't stepped up to to talk. Except NOW that I'm NC he can blame ME for HIS not talking.

uggggh. thanks.


M--14 years
T--20 years, HS sweethearts
dday #1--2002 EA
dday #2--2005 bar sl*t
dday #3/4--Feb 2010 texting/cell/physical/who knows what
Shortly after found out he had been injecting steroids for 2 years