feelings as OW seems to be on way out

[forward]

Because I feel bad for X (who nearly died), I am finding that feelings are still stirring. I am trying to separate feelings of pity from feelings of still caring about him.

I didn't actually visit w/X but I did bring him the DVD. Which he actually thanked me for (not at the time but later). His apt, which I was in only once, is filled w/photos of OW and him. Still.

OW doesn't seem to be around any more, although I think she was around for at least part of this crisis.

I may have to be more open about how I am feeling w/New Guy because I do realize I am holding myself back with him because of how I am feeling. I will have to remain detached here.