Freckle, I am so glad to hear from you tonight! I was thinking of you all day. I am going through all my db threads as a record of what I have gone through the past year + - to write my request for an injunction with the court - and there you were, along with Rabbit, rr, Kalni, Alice, Laurah Oh and others faithfully supporting me, always responding, always helping.
I can't thank you enough - I have tears as I write this.
REading back I too am horrified. I can't believe I couldn't get objective enough to see what was going on - and it must have been really hard for you all to read my threads day in and day out. However, you are right, I see progress throughout, a slow building strength and perspective and all because I had my DB "team" out there, you as one of the longest standing.
I can't thank you enough for all the support you have given me and how you never stopped caring and writing. I only hope someday I can return the support to you or someone else. I wish I could meet you and give you a big hug.
Well back to reading the threads - I have to sort out patterns, specific dates of bad abuse, and state my requests. It's slooooow going but I will have an outline for the lawyer tomorrow or the next day and they can write it in formal form.
Even if I don't win more custody I at least have had the chance to look over my life of the past year and realize I have been abused. I don't know why I don't believe it half the time. I can see the pattern and start to build a new life where I tell myself every day I deserve better and being independant is better than being yelled at. I can start to build healthier boundaries.
