thanks for your words Saffie. at Retrouvaille they tell u exactly that. funny bc yest we had our weekly post weekend meeting, and my W was "out of it" or seemed uninterested. she later relayed how this whole thing seems so tiring at times. the alternative i told her? did she think D would cure it all? funny but do they think that walking away and going w/ D will make it all better? that i will still be in her life and she in mines. our children? we did love one another once (or at least she did me). i think that it is worth the effort. right now i feel as if i am alone. suspect she is backsliding just a little. it worries me.
there is something to be said about having a forgiving personality. it starts w/ u forgiving yourself. then u try and send message that u are open to forgiving them. u do that in your words and deeds. i have agreed to not let myself think about OM and my W meeting in roadside motels. the thought flits into my brain but i do not let it linger.
too true. it would be better to be a robot sometimes.
