Not sure where to start or end, WAW? - #3

[john28]

Just a quick update. I didn't get the chance to read DR again last night, something else happened. I was in the grocery store and this girl that I've seen there many times came up to me and introduced herself, said she sees me in there alot and just had to come say hi.

I flirted a little bit, it's the most interest I've had in 6 months from someone of the opposite sex. She was giddy flirty, really hot, probably in her mid 20's and was completely opposite of what my W is. It was weird, but I felt somewhat empowered by this weird occurrence. At the end of the short 5 minute conversation she wrote down her email address and gave it to me, said that since I lived nearby and we went to the same gym we should catch up some time and work out together.

My W hasn't worn her wedding ring in almost 2 months. I've worn mine out of respect for her and our M, but last night was the first time I felt like taking it off for good. Through this experience I've learned to have a higher sense of integrity, and wearing my wedding ring seemed to be a lofty value i thought I wanted to have.

So, I go home, and I end up sending her an email saying thanks for the recommendation on the type of rice that I was looking for and that it turned out well and was scrumptious. Later she started chatting me up and we chatted somewhat off and on that night. I found her making some moves on me and that felt pretty good. It was definitely a confidence booster - because for ONCE in almost HALF A YEAR someone was interested in me as a person. They thought I was good looking, had a great sense of humor, and seemed like a nice guy. All those things I've been working on so hard for myself and no one else, someone else noticed.

I guess all that gave me the power today to feel more confident in myself and I ended up not taking any of the 4 calls my W placed to me today. When I did call her at s4's bedtime, I was upbeat after letting him off the phone and in bed and spoke to her. She sounded down and lonely, I could feel it - but I knew that she was testing me again. I didn't bite, but I did ask her about her day, and she was giving one word answers. I said that nothing new was with me, but for her to have a good night. She seemed hesitant to get off the phone, and I have in the past not LOVINGLY detached from her but just been mean. I made a point to ask her about one other thing this week, which she had a one word answer to. I just told her goodnight nicely and hung up the phone.

I am slowly detaching, getting there day by day. But the meeting of the stranger in the grocery store who is smoking freakin' hot did give me a confidence boost I haven't had in a very, very long time. Probably years.