You did too belong here. How else do you think you got to a stronger place within yourself to be able to look more objectively at your R and see the abuse?
To be honest, when I started coming back here (to piecing) and read your first thread there, I was a bit horrified with what you described of your H. I would remind myself that we all have crucified our spouses here over stuff they have done to us (or we wouldn't be here to begin with), and that I couldn't just go off the bad stuff you posted just like I knew there was all the sides to my H that were different than the one that walked out on me.
I'm very glad you're seeing that the way he speaks/spoke to you is unacceptable a million times over. You don't make him like that. I don't care what you have done or said to him, there's nothing you can do to justify some of the stuff he's spit out at you.
Hang in there. I think about you every day. We're here behind you, ok?
Me38,H:38,S:7 Married:6/99 Bomb:7/04 Sep.:5/05 D Filed:3/08;Final 1/10 Piecing:11/09 H moved back:09/10 Current thread: http://tiny.cc/htcty