Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

Things continue to go well. The weekend went great. H took off Friday night and spent it with me (he was supposed to come early enough to have dinner w/ S and I, but some things happened at work, so he came a little later). We had brunch together as a family on Saturday. H had to work the rest of Saturday day, but then came back over that night. Today we took S to the park and fed the ducks and did a pony ride. S had the best time! It was all just comfortable and good. We talked briefly about his anger issues and he remarked again how he needs to go back to the dr so can get his emotions stablized out. He didn't admit to being unreasonable on his last attack on me, but he did state about what a bad low that was a few weeks ago. I hope he does go back to the dr, b/c I want to see him more often like he was this weekend - smiling, happy, easy to get along with. The other H is impossible to reason with, talk to, just everything! Another interesting thing is that he did remark how he would not want to move back to this area again (not in regards to us, but it was a response about not wanting to be too close to the new business), so I wonder how that fits with putting us back in his life??

I'm not so naive that I actually believe that this fairy tale can continue like this forever, but I'm hoping it's the stepping stone to something better. It's so hard to know what H is thinking exactly tho. I have a little time so I'm just letting things play out and enjoying the fun times right now, but I also always feel this small sense of dread, b/c I know the big issues need to be addressed at some point & this little fairy tale will come to an end. S has been doing something interesting recently too. He seems all in to the "mom" and "dad" roles. He points at the "mom" and "dad" characters in his books or on tv and was having his stuffed elephant "dad" hug the baby elephant. I'm not sure what is going thru his head. It doesn't seem like he misses H at all when he's not here and really doesn't seem all that attached to him when he is. I don't know if he's just coming to an awareness now of what a "traditional family" is, but even so, it doesn't seem to have to do with his emotions for H. With me tho, he's become more clingy and needy (a stage he's going thru?) I have never had trouble with him going to sleep and sleeping thru the night since he was 9 months old, but now he'll cling on to me when I try to put him down to bed and wakes up at least once a night calling "mommmy, mommy" until I come in. I feel like somethings going on in his little head, but I don't understand what it is.

Well, I expect another busy week ahead. My bosses father had passed away last week (always very said), but then since he was out taking care of things, it made it even busier for me!