I have been on this website just "hanging out" since my d-day trying to get all the inspiration I could. At 4 months out my sitch has been continuously deteriorating. He had the affair in June, and decided to end it and work on the marriage. He seemed to be somewhat committed to that for about a month, but throughout that month he kept saying that he would keep trying if he saw changes on my end, that he was making no guarruntees. Some days he would say he was willing to work on it as long as needed, he knew I needed to heal. But at about 1 month he really seemed to stop trying. Not that he was full blown trying before, but he got tired of my sleepless nights, my emotions, etc. Then I found out at month 2 that he was emailing the other woman again. I asked him to leave, he said he didn't want that and it wasn't what i thought. So we decided to try to work somemore. But he never really tried after that. I think they stopeed meailing but I don't know for sure. Then I found out 4 weeks after that that he sent her a b-day card. This time before I could even get the words out of my mouth he said that he was done. Now he wants to separate. We had the fight to end all fights yesterday and he said that he has absolutely no love for me anymore. So here i am, it's like d-day all over again. I am sitting here trying to figure out how to survive separation. I feel like i have been blindsided twice. First with the affair, and then he lied about really wanting to wrk it out and give us the time that we need to heal. Ho do i get through this?
