I'm aware of the smoking. And I am going to do something about it. Thanks for the reminder.
Originally Posted By: PEI
It's that simple. This point in your journey is where you are supposed to be for whatever the reason is ... it just is. We are all told very early on that there are no guarentees when it comes to our marriages, and we are also told that if we do the work we will save ourselves.
Thanks for this. Oddly, last night I was struck by a thought that diturbs me a little. I was overcome with the feeling that maybe I'm not as different as I think I am. It's unnerving to doubt your own sincerity. I'm gonna have to think about this some more. I may only be doubting how "ingrained' the changes are but it bothers me.
As I said, I'm feeling very unsure of myself and my 'position' at this time. This is why:
-I occasionally see old M behaviours pop back into my life -I recognize "original CD" bhvrs that I now question whether I want again.
As you can see, I'm trying to review the original CD and "during M" bhvrs and put them into judgement based on my new learning-integrity, boundaries, priority of "my" needs, open communinication, better listening, "life goals', optimism, being "Real", etc.
Quite honestly, sometimes this all seems overwhelming. And at this stage, I'm unsure of myself and this calls into question my ability to make these decisions.
As usual, I'm probably over anayzing this but that's where I am right now.
