I'm frustrated with myself because I stopped posting just when things were getting more interesting with Mr. A and me, and now I can't remember what happened! I've spent the morning trying to retrace the timeline and figure out how he basically managed to move back in and then things blew up again.

I know everyone is suggesting that I go dark on Mr. A. Aside from that, I still want to think about what changed during the month of September that made us go from what seemed like an upward swing right back down.

It's crazy. And it's sad.