You are right Brooklyn and I know that I am doing that too much - probably to avoid answering my own issues. This absolute lack of self-worth I carry around is deadly. Someone said yesterday that I do get angry but that I turn it all inward - like I am the one who is responsible for this whole mess. Every single flaw of mine I have turned into a valid justification for his appalling, disrespectful actions. I have refused to acknowledge his flaws - instead choosing to "soften" his antisocial craziness into "quirky" or "eccentricities". I bring the hammer down on me - my flaws are FAILINGS - because I should know better - I should be better.

Nauseating!

M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time