Can I answer that with what I know I don't want? For the past five years or so we've been jumping around. W and I have lived in 7 houses, 3 states and 2 counties. We've had a bunch of jobs . . . I just want that to stop. We've been running around trying to . . . I don't even know what. I'm tired.
I do love my W. She frequenly says that "we're just not good together"? Maybe she is right. I can't say. I know I don't want to believe it. I think all the running around we've done has done serious damage to us. I wish we had another chance, where we were stable, to try.
In reality I was 90% to where I wanted to be before we got off track with this current job, which indirectly led to the A.
Originally Posted By: Forrest Gump
That question brings on another question.
Who do you want to be?
I used to be a software engineer. I enjoyed it. I want to go back to doing that. 7 or 8 years ago I was a strong, fun guy. Lately I've just been drowning and I think that is why my M is ending.
I want to be the fun guy my W fell in love with. To not worry about money and the future so much. I used to think that IF I had the big house, the good job and some savings THEN things would be OK. THEN I could work on my R. THEN I could give my W what she needed.
I don't want to do that anymore. She is too important. I am too important. Life is too short.
I guess, I want to unwind all the crap in my life, find someone who I can share some dreams with and just enjoy life rather than waiting for some future that may never come.
And yes. I want a family and kids.
M:37 W:34 M:4 years T:6 years No Kids A disclosed - 9/1/2010 W asks for separation - 10/19/2010 Moving on - 10/24/2010 A ends (and I believe her) - 12/2010 Content - 3/1/2011 Served - 3/18/2011 D Day - 6/20/2011
