I will reach out to some vet and see if they can reply…
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i think i went into a mild physical shock for two days. this was NOT what i was expecting.
Mild physical shock…F*ck I would have passed out. AND No I’m not kidding.
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'but, i wish you had been honest with me.' do mlc'ers really believe the lbs can be honest with them and not face consequences?
What were YOU not honest about?
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i have two major feelings. do i want to be with him and have things work out...yes!
Why? Not just cause it will feel normal…really WHY? AND don’t just say…”cause I love him”…I understand that I love him is a valid answer…WHY do you love him?
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but also i'm so scared to go back to living on eggshells...to have him dominate my mind...
Fear – can paralyze even the strongest of strong. Guess what it is only FEAR. Face it. Oh…and remember who controls HOW you allow someone to TREAT YOU? Psstt…hint…it ain’t your H.
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to cycle through the same thing again if it doesn't work out.
Pandora…are you EXPECTING and GUARENTEE? If it doesn’t work out will that change WHO YOU have become?
If it does…then honey…you need to think about WHY it would.
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i myself was getting to a good place. a really good place...and i'm so scared to lose that.
Fear again….are you afraid of YOURSELF? Cause the way I see it…only YOU can loose the good place that you have found. I sure as hell can’t take it from you and NOR should anyone else.
FWIW,
This has to be YOUR call.
Center yourself and shut out everyone else opinion and comments.
What do YOU really want?
Can you forgive?
Can you allow yourself to be hurt again? AND – remember this…we are all flawed humans…pain will happen in our lives. It is just the way it is. With your H or with someone else there is bound to be some level of pain at some point.
What do YOUR vows mean to YOU
What does YOU H mean to YOU
Finally, do not let anger, fear, resentment, PRIDE, or anything else for that matter drive your decision.
As the bible says….Love conquers all…
I will pray for you and your H tonight…
Oh…..don’t worry…whatever is going to happen will happen…Know that He is with thee….
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
