Halloween is coming, so of course there is the question of how to we celebrate. She wants to know if I'll bevtsking them to the pumpkin farm with my sister or if I want her to come with us. She said she can take them separate but she doesn't want to have to do that. I'm torn on this issue, part of me wants to be away from her, because we aren't a family any longer, it's awkward and it usually is hard on me emotionally afterward. Not to mention my family is very disappointed in how selfish she's been and how poorly she's treated me. The other part of me feels like I need to do those things or I will miss some precious moments with my babies, yet Doing so will hinder my plan to have her miss me.
