Why do I keep asking if I deserved this somehow? Why do I feel like I am the crazy one and he is sane? Why do I avoid taking care of myself - why don't I think I am worth it? Why won't I just give up, give in, let go, - why do I keep pushing myself - why am I so hard on myself - why don't I feel worthy? Why am I so tired - why do I feel guilty for everything - why do I think he is wrong? Why do I believe we had a wonderful friendship - something really special that everyone saw? Why wasn't I enough for him? Why will he never consider coming home? Why has he done a 180? Why does he shun religion? [b]Why can't I get angry - REALLY angry?[b] What will my life look like? Will I be alone if I stand? Am I pathetic, foolish, a doormat?
I'm having a tough day...
(((Irish)))
These days are tough. No doubt about it at all.
When you are ready, you've given yourself a great place to work from ... start looking at the questions I've bolded and start digging deep within yourself to answer them. This is where YOUR journey really begins ...
Be kind to yourself Irish. Peace, PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
