she still has my heart, and I can hope we will be able to find a way to rekindle the fire between us and lay the foundation for a new marriage. my hope for the future is to renew our vows, maybe even marry her again. dreamer i guess.
That's what we did....but we made it a small thing - just H, me and the children. The vicar knew exactly what we had been through and helped us word things so beautifully. It was just right.
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do i completely trust my W? hmmm, mostly but not blindly. today for example she was at a friend's house for a couple of hours. i started to head out and saw her car coming towards me as i was driving away. she asked me where was i going? told her out. i did end up telling her that i "felt worried, uneasy, unsure." wouldve never been able to do that before. my problem was holding on to my feelings. no more. W smiled wistfully and told me not to worry. hugged me.
This will come in time. Trust has to be earned....and you will still have wobbles when similar circumstances present themselves.....but at some point it does seem to get better. You suddenly look back and realise you haven't been feeling those panicky feelings for a while and things are more relaxed.
Just don't forget that your M is something to KEEP WORKING ON.....DBing is for life, IMO.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
