Here's what makes things so hard. I am now a single father raising 4 kids alone. Our current schedule is she has them by herself 1-2 days a week, as do I. The huge dilema is the other 5-6 days she doesnt have them, I do, I daily and ALONE, with a max of 5 hrs sleep, pick them up from separate schools, do homework for all of them, make their dinners, read to them, play with them, try to do choirs, tend to baby, put them all to bed and set out clothes for morning. My wife only has to get kids ready and drop at school then she had one baby. When she moves into her new apt next month, I have to drop my babies of to a babysitter at get home for them to sleep. That's tears me apart, and makes my day even more stressful. She had barely any patenting to do. I'm exhausted and I'm devestated. I have to reinvent myself in order for this woman to love me again, while she disregards my feeling and my deep love for my children. Anothet fight and I'm losing ground. I'm just done today... Heartbroken by it all.
I know it's tough. Heck I remember when my W packed up and left to move to her sister's place. She kept saying that she wanted to live as a single parent. I told her that because she lived with her sister who pretty much does everything for her, and I'm living alone, I'm the one who is the single parent. Not her.
You'll adapt and change. It's going to be hard as hell, but you can do it. Have faith in yourself.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
There's no question about it, short of a miracle, this will proceed to completion.
Her last text: I really hope that we can be nice to each other. I'm really sorry if u r getting the wrong impression by me not talking to u, the only reason I have been doing that is because I don't like/want to fight with u. U r great father and person, I appreciate everything u have done for me. I do look at my life with u as a positive thing too. We had fun times.. The truth is.. I'll miss you.. I'm truly sorry for ur pain right now. I just hope things get better for us for our kids.
Halloween is coming, so of course there is the question of how to we celebrate. She wants to know if I'll bevtsking them to the pumpkin farm with my sister or if I want her to come with us. She said she can take them separate but she doesn't want to have to do that. I'm torn on this issue, part of me wants to be away from her, because we aren't a family any longer, it's awkward and it usually is hard on me emotionally afterward. Not to mention my family is very disappointed in how selfish she's been and how poorly she's treated me. The other part of me feels like I need to do those things or I will miss some precious moments with my babies, yet Doing so will hinder my plan to have her miss me.
Ok so I snapped, I wasn't talking much to her... She asked how kids were I'd respond, Good... She asked othere things related to kids or bills, I'd respond, Yes or No... She brought up the topic of child custody, I didn't agree, she became a bully and started to threaten to go for full custody so I wouldn't see them... It pissed me off major, especially since I should definitely be awarded the children Judy based on actual parenting. I told her to leave me alone, I'm done, told her I had nothing more to say to her... She asked if we could talk about things (the divorce), I told her No. She came home from work, not a word from her... As I left still very angry shed even consider threatening to keep my kids from me... I told her I never wanted to speak to her again. I sorta meant it It's not looking pretty
Alright you need to get yourself together. I know it's hard, but you've got to stop letting your W drive the train. Have you seen a C for your own issues? You need a good support system to help you through this.
We've all been through this, so I know how tough it is. What have you done for yourself?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
