You had asked on Romeo's thread when this got better. For me it was after the divorce. I fought for my marriage all the way up until the end so after I began to see my life without him. I also know that I gave it everything I had so nothing to be ashamed of.
I was in the mess for a bit over two years and have been divorced a bit over two years. There is so much stress of the unknown. Who knows what a divorce is like if you haven't gone through it. The limbo and then constant dread took a real toll. So much better now.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory