"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Woke up this morning to a text from H that he sent at 1 a.m. - it said "I hate my life. This all *^&%$ sucks"
I replied with "I'm sorry". He called me as I was on my way into work, he was in tears and said "I don't think I'm going to make it hun, I really don't think I'm going to make it" I said "you don't have a choice, you have to make it" and he said "there's always a choice" I said "I know you don't see it right now, but you have so many reasons to make it - our kids need their dad" He said "I'd rather them remember me as I am now than see me as what I am afraid I'm going to become" I said "What are you afraid you are going to become?" He said "Nothing but a bum and a loser" He was in tears the whole time. I asked him what the Dr. said about that stuff, about the fact that he feels like he can't do anything right and that everything he does goes wrong and fails...he said the Dr. said that with my H's history he can understand why he feels that way. He told me he was sorry for everything and that he had to get off the phone b/c a client was coming in shortly. He thanked me for listening to him. I said "you're welcome".
I hate seeing my H in so much pain. Regardless of what has happened and what he has done, it hurts to see/hear the awful pain that it appears he is feeling. I know I can't but I wish I could I fix everything for him. I am really really worried about his mental state.
I suspect that he is dealing with quite a few demons that right now are torturing his mind.
This is something that HE has to work through. I know you know that you cannot fix him. So what can you do...
Be the light...
Be compassionate...
Be understanding...
Show him what Love is...
As hard as it might be, right now you should not jump in and try to save him.
Your comapssion shows him what is ahead of him.
Be strong!
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Jennifer - I hope your H is okay. scary to hear them talk like that. Stay strong for you and him. My little brother talks like this sometimes and it is terrifing - the depression is so deep. At least he is seeking professional help! I wish my H would.
Eric - what I want to know is HOW IS YOUR WIFE NOT TOTALLY AND COMPELETLY IN LOVE WITH YOU :)he-he! I always read what you write and you are so focused and (what did Jack say the other day?) In touch with your feminine side!
all joking aside - thank you for being consistant with all of us who feel lost and alone. The interesting thing is that as we are the light for our MLC S - our friends on this board are the light for us.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
None of us are professionals. I would suggest you call a suicide prevention hotline or a doctors office. My sister has some training in dealing with rape and crisis victims and her advice is to immediately take this to the next level.
(((hugs))) PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
I would contact his Dr or suggest to your H that he does.
Ya know, this may be against DB principals...but now may be a good time for a good old fashion "I love you". Take this suggestion with a grain of salt.
Keep being the light Jennifer...
I am not sure if you pray or believe in God..if YOU do..
Then now that he has ALL of this under control. Believe it, confess it, feel it and give thanks for it.
I will pray for you H tonight, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
