Thank you Lance and Pei. Yes, do you know where I can get "Facebook for Dummies?" I felt a bit slow on the uptake last night. But, I'll try, try again.
True, the answer to the question is I have not let go of the old marriage yet and let it die. I want him to love me the way we once loved one another, without conditions. My mind knows this, my heart still grieves for what cannot be. That is a necessary step yet to be taken by me.
My mind thinks he will never face his demons, my heart hopes he will. The thing that bugs me the most, and I think this is a true statement for a lot of us, is that, 'He/She didn't love me enough to right the wrongs. Just ran away like a child who broke a window with a baseball.' "Wasn't me, don't know". Yes, I know that 'bugs me' is a synonym for 'angers me'.
As Irish put it, I like the person he has become less & less. Perhaps that is only detachment. But I honestly would not meet him today out of fear. His mood swings and rants via email are disturbing. The man I married never laid a hand on me, but that's not who this guy is.
Anyway, I'm still hanging in here. Yesterday may not have been the 'you'll know the right time', but it was a fairly good facsimile.
