Looking for help with WAW - 2

[mza8]

Robx, the original buyers were pre-qualified. They backed out. Should know something today if the second set of buyers is interested. We’ve been getting a lot of showings on the house but no real offers. The house is priced well and lower than just about every other comparable home in the area. If these second set of buyers don’t make an offer I’m going to lower the price in one week. Trust me, this house is a huge pain for me too and I’m tired of dealing with it. I will have all of the last fixes to the house completed this weekend and then that’s finally finished. House looks great now.

Regarding keeping the lines of communication open with W. The point I was trying to make was that I don’t really want to communicate with her right now. So I keep going back and forth whether to respond to her when she contacts me like she’s been doing the past week or ignore her? I agree it’s depressing to only talk to her about the same depressing news. This is not the communication I want to have with her. I want to talk to her about good things and have fun with her again…be happy and laugh together again. I used to be able to always make her laugh and I’d love to make her laugh again one day. This house and all of the baggage from the past has got to go and go now. We’ll never have the chance for a healthy relationship until this house is gone. I’m sure it’s too late for that anyway.

I don’t even know what I want right now. I need to get to a point that I can clear my mind of all of this garbage and begin to think clearly about things. I have thought about dating. The prospect of meeting other women is not a bad thing for me anymore. I honestly do not find my W attractive right now with the person she has become. I’m all for growth but she’s unrecognizable to me now. I feel like I’ve put my life on hold for so long dealing with this stuff for the past 3 years and I just want out now. I don’t want this life anymore, I want to be happy too. Whether it’s with my W one day or with someone else I just want to be happy again. I haven’t been happy for a long long time.