Oh, ok I get it now. I shouldnt be worried about how many times I have forgiven him? Trying to figure this all out.
Listen kissak ... nobody on here is going to tell you that anything you H has done or is doing is OK. But I can tell you this ... keeping track, keeping score = resentment. Simple. First hand knowledge of that one unfortunately. And one of the things MWD talks about in her books.
Nobody said life was fair.
So no, you shouldn't be worried about how many times you've forgiven him.
And no, I didn't miss the sarcasm.
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc