I want to be part of the group...

[Jstar]

So I sent h a msg, i do not have a phone in reference to d3 starting school on monday, he never responded even 3 days later, so it left me to call him.

all he keeps saying is i don't want to argue with you, i should have his work schedule memorized.

he asks nothing of me, now what i do with the kids are how they are with me, eating etc. he is completely disattached.

i'm driving with the kids tonight to get some movies and icecream and i'm pulling in the driveway, hating that i still love him and wish i didn't. i dislike these feelings so much, it' makes me so weak and unable to move on.

i remember when it changed: he took me and the kids to the airport so we could go to my d18 graduation out of state. it was a trip from hell by the airports mistakes not me or the kids.

when we came back i went dark for 2 weeks, no contact no nothing. that was when he went to vegas, posting on facebook, hitting the clubs hard etc.

it is coming up on a year of seperation at the end of october, to when he left me and d3, me pregnant 4 months. not a darn thing has changed. he is still unreliable, lives for him first, and i still feel same for him,.