Thank you everyone for your replies, I have read them all over lots and am taking some time to think about everything, there is so much food for thought, thank you all. My head is all over the place at the moment, what with being exhausted by burning the candle at both ends (it has been fun though ) and ill with a cold (why does that always happen when I get exh news???).
I had a conversation with Joe about the drugs thing just to find out a little history. He has never injected and has only taken heroin once, it made him sick as a dog. But he has been around it, his mum's cousin used to be an addict and he had to go and visit him when he was younger. Mostly it was just coke that he took but he hasn't taken anything since he left the UK. His Dad died when he was young and it has left him with a lot of issues. I'm not taking them on though, I just wanted facts from him.
On the exh thing, I have just decided that I don't want to reply, there is really nothing I can say (other than I think he's an idiot!) so it is probably better to say nothing at all. And I just want no more contact, that part of my life is done.
Lea - I read your thread our sitches are very similar. Do you have a current one, I'd so love to know more about life after d and how you got your confidence back, if you don't mind sharing, your post was very reassuring.
Al - you took the words right out of my mouth about exh!
Re the drugs thing, I know it is a no go. I thought it was just a bit of weed, which my brother-in-law smokes regularly and he and my sister have a great relationship. The harder stuff freaks me out.
Now I have to try and work out how to get tested in Australia and how on earth I am going to afford it! There goes my travel savings for one stupid night!