you registered on 5/21 of this year...so that is about 4 1/2 months.
So in 4 1/2 months...you now...
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think I'm approaching the place where I've let go so completely there is no going back
Going back on what? Your vows? YOUR truth?
Really?
FTR, I actually understand how you feel. I wanted to do the same thing at pretty much the same time (I think it was 4 months in for me)....right around the time I found out that my Wife was fuc*ing her boss.
No wait....Actually, I think I "felt" this way a month in. Right after her 1st EA with someone in NJ.
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maybe it's me that loves him but is not in love with him anymore
Hey...I think I said the exact same thing. I'd have to go look up some of my old threads. Maybe Punkin..this is LBS "script". Maybe Lance can confirm that (no offence Lance - really).
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I'm not sure I want to.
Someone once gave me some excellent advice....doing NOTHING is DOING SOMETHING. It is an action that you take to "do nothing". So your not sure, well nothing...okay maybe you can do something...
Figure out how to deal with the anger that you feel.
Punkin - you can feel free to tell me to go fukc myself BUT IMO, your not DONE! Your not ready to call it a day. Your better than that.
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I can say that I did my best.
Can you? Really you think you can? Hold that mirror up and look into that fuc*er. Look right into and ask yourself that question. BTW, Don't answer me - answer YOURSELF. This is YOUR life not mine. I am just some Rican in CT posting on a board.
What this Rican can tell you is this..
I have been done about 5 times.. I am still not done.. I still love my W and I always will
I will ride this out UNTIL I can look in that mirror and without a shadow of a doubt say (in peace)...Eric, you gave it everything you had and then some...and then...i gave it a little more.
Will you quit on HIS terms or YOURS?
Will you give up because right now he is fuc*ed up in the head?
Will you give up on YOU?
That's right YOU?
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I just lost.
Lost? what did you loose a M that was broken? Hell, it has to die. You know that already. It must die in order to be reborn.
Punkin - I have alway liked you..I like your style, your spunk, I can see that you really care about the people on these boards. I can see just HOW much you love your H.
His actions are killing you right now.
Separate the actions from the man that by your own admission was the man of your dreams. The one who drove a chevy (I think it was a chevy).
Your hurt and angry still.
The court date is coming up
The chips may look like they are stacked against you
OW is with him and that hurts....FTR, I slept in the same bed with my W...even on the days that she came home and I knew she was with "him". So trust me I know the pain that one feels when OP is involved.
Everything looks like hell in a hand basket..
Yeah your doing some GAL'ing..your starting to feel better, which is good.
BUT
Do me a favor,
Don't quit...not yet...
Let us see the Punkin that will fly and do this chit her way.
F him and OW...cut them off,
Let her have him (and for the record he is still YOURs) or think she has him
Let him bi*ch and moan...
Let him talk to the hand...
This is YOUR show Pun...YOU run this motherf'er...
It's all YOU...and guess what...
You and I know...YOU STILL LOVE THAT MAN who DRIVE the chevy.
You can do this..
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
