She's in MLC, but I was weak. Now what?

[crushednstuck]

I have a dog too. I know of other LBS dog owners fighting for their Ms. There must be a connection. Who else would get kicked by the one they love and come back tail wagging, forgiveness in their heart?

Yeah she definitely wants a friend. She only has one she can share her behavior with. There's judgement waiting for her if she tells anyone else. Dam*, she's still wearing a "wedding ring" to avoid the embarrassment of explaining herself. How do I avoid eventually being asked over for a pillow fight and a manicure?

I made the mistake today of "acknowledging" the year we've spent apart. There were some awkward pauses in the kid convo last night. I indicated I was sad about the separation, but told her I've never spent so much time in reflection. I found some benefit from it. Of course, she made it about her. She said she knew the date, intentionally didn't say anything and if I was trying to make her feel bad, it worked.

Your question about happiness is a curious one. I'm not sure what that feels like. I've been content, satisfied, inspired, and accomplished, but I don't think I can really say I have often been happy. More stuff for the IC I guess.