I left here yesterday morning at around 8 to go to work. Mr. A was up and watching TV when I left, and I had a funny feeling about the whole thing. Neither of us slept well on Tuesday night because our evening together was very strained.

He had to be at work yesterday at 3:30.

Ok, I am NOT a morning person and don't start to think clearly until about 10. But I was driving to work at 8 feeling angry about the past 24 hours and I drafted an email as soon as I got to the office but didn't send it to Mr. A.

As the day went on, my ill feelings changed from being upset that he didn't treat me very nicely Tuesday night to being suspicious that he was back on the hunt.

I got home after work and saw that he'd taken his most important belongings - laptop, cell phone charger, work clothes - so I figured that I wouldn't see him for a few days. Some stuff he said Tuesday night backed that up.

That's when my suspicions heightened and I sent him the email that I posted here. Then, as you all know, I tried to send him a text to tell him I sent that email, but it never went through! Or at least I don't know for sure whether it went through or not. confused Uh, communication issues?

I've gotten no response from Mr. A since then, but (at the moment) I care less than I thought I would. I mean, I still care a LOT about Mr. A, but I don't care that much about what he's doing or thinking at this exact second. I miss his presence, which I kind of got used to again, but I'm happy to have a night at home. I paid the bills (not fun, but needed to be done), the dogs are being pretty quiet, I did a load of laundry - nothing glamorous, but taking care of me. Maybe tomorrow I will actually find the energy to do yoga!