I've talked to him twice now. And I still haven't talked about his email (my 'dear john' ltr). I want to know if this is another 'ploy.' I mean obviously I know how DBing works and honestly he is the one that needs to be on here...I'm the WAway afterall.

I don't know what my next step should be. We were scheduled to take the kids to the counselor next week so they could discuss what's been going on. But if it is time to break up the family and for us to separate the counseling session would take a different turn. I don't know if I should take him at his word that he's ready to proceed or if I should wait and see if he's going to change his mind again.

"I feel like Rocky in the fifteenth round, beaten beyond recognition, when I realize, the only person I've been fighting for is...myself."