Is there any hope for us?

[bustorama]

Yes, GAL GAL GAL. I agree with soleil and dancing queen that, based on what you said, he knows how you feel. He just wants no part of it now(?).

Towards healing/improving yourself, I suggest you get a book about infidelity and also a book about boundaries/assertiveness in relationships. It's not only OK, but the better thing to do for your partner in your relationship to stand up for yourself and make sure that your key/critical needs be met. That you always feel "heard." You are actually doing a disservice not only to yourself, but to your partner by "yielding" because of the problems that follow. (I did the same as you, incidentally)

Re: infidelity, I liked: Not "Just Friends" : Protect Your Relationship from Infidelity and Heal the Trauma of Betrayal (by Glass)

Re: boundaries, consider: Boundaries in Marriage (by Cloud and Townsend)