Ahh my mistake Pin I thought you meant YOU told her you'd be gone except for the kids.
That is what I meant about her trying, you said so.
The reverse of it?
She told you that she'd be gone except for the kids? If that was absolutely true, then why is she trying so hard?
Living like Cary Grant isn't a bad goal, Time is right.
Because of the kids!
And yes, if it weren't for the kids, I'd be gone too. The minute she told me that she'd be gone if we didn't have kids, I'd have gotten up, packed enough clothes to last a few days, and then been gone. Imagine someone dating you, and telling you that if it weren't for your trust fund, that they'd be screwing someone else. I was so shocked by her honesty, that sometimes I think I must have misheard her. But I know I didn't.
A part of me will always hope that she does love me and wants me. But I'm not seeing it now, and I don't want to keep putting my life on hold waiting for something that might not happen. And I see no progress at all. Hell, she tickled me this morning when she was saying goodbye, and all I could think of was DON'T ACT!
Sigh, now I see that I'm still angry over the whole sitch, not detached as much as I want. I'm not angry at her, I'm angry at myself for vacillating so damn much.
